Today

On a national holiday, events happened that have shocked the country. It has made many cry and changed lives forever, it has also changed mine it has made me see in life what I really want.

I laugh

When something is very deadly serious.
When I was 21 I fell onto an old goldmine, there was only a thin layer of dirt covering this 100 year old goldmine, I was laughing so hard I could not get onto my feet. The earth below me fell away and the only reason I did not fall to my death was because of the safety rope around my waist.
I thank Darren every day for making me put the safety rope on.

I do not like it

When you are made to feel obligated to go visit people that you really do not like!
I have come to realise life is to short and if I do not feel like visiting people I just tell them, why should I sit there nodding my head and faking my feelings?

I love

It that my best friend, even though far away can make me smile.
I got some post today that made me smile so wide that I hugged the post and thought of him.
I gave up smelling it as I think once the postman dropped the letter in something not so nice

I do not like it

When I go to the shops looking at cloths and the sales assistants come to me and tell me "We do not have that in your size" then continue to tell me "We have nothing that big here"
What makes them think I am buying something for me? I take my business elsewhere.

I cry

When I see other people cry due to being sad. In public I can not cry unless someone else starts, that made me feel guilty at my grandfathers funeral. My daughter cried then I started.

Sometimes

I just lay in bed after waking up and look for something on my ceiling to count.
This morning it was the spots in the plaster work and I got up to 307 before I rolled over, hugged my pillow and went back to sleep.